Leave room for magic.

Thursday, March 10, 2016


Kummaline, kuidas antud hetkel kõik päevad vaikselt õhtusse tiksudes justkui riburada pidi ühte pimedasse auku kokku jooksevad. Elurütm on mingil määral soiku jäänud ning paljud sammud, mida võiks juba praegu helgemate aegade nimel teha, ei olene sugugi enam minust endast. Raske on oodata, kui hing sees kibeleb hoopistükis tegutsema. Mingil moel seguneb see teadmatus taevas lookleva halli ning sombuse pilvkattega ning surub mõneti raskelt maadligi. Kuid ma tean, et tuleb kogu südamega uskuda uute alguste maagiasse ning ega targad ju ei torma ka. Kõik juhtub omal õigel ajal. Mõnikord on seda aga puhtalt omaenda kannatamatusest lihtne ära unustada. 

Somehow it seems that these days my whole life seems to roll slowly into the same dark and empty hole. The rhythm of my life has somewhat come to a standstill, where I have no much say in the possible opportunities and happening coming to my way. It is hard to wait when there is this something stuck inside you that simply wants to pursue your aims and take action. In addition all these feelings seem to interlace into one with the endlessly grey weather, making it even harder to go through the days. But I know I should blindheartedly trust the magic of beginnings and just be patient. All is bound to happen in the right time. It is sometimes just easy to forget this due to my own impatience. 

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Ausaltöeldes ei ole päris mitu aastat nõnda kevadet oodanud kui sel aastal. Kuigi ma tõesti armastan talve, lund ning kõiki neid vahvaid asju, mida viimased endaga kaasa toovad, olen ma nüüdseks sellest küll väga ära väsinud. Ma ei oska öelda, kas tõesti hakkab see hall, pime ja päikesevaene aeg viimaks kuidagi intensiivsemalt kehale ja vaimule mõjuma, kuid midagi kummalist on sisemuses toimumas juba küll. Sest kui ma oma silmad sulen ja kujutan ette kõiki neid ilusaid pilte soojast päikesest ning pehmest tuulest, värskest õhust, mis on tulvil tärkava looduse lõhna, kergest veesulinast tänavatel ja sellest kindlast miskist, mis kevadega alati soojalt hinge poeb, võiksin kalendris ilma igasuguse vaevataaja mitme-mitme nädala võrra edasi keerata. 

Kuidas Teil kevadväsimusega on? Ja kas ootate ka juba sama usinalt soojemaid aegu?

Truth to be told, it has been years since I have awaited for spring to come like I do this year. Even though I truly love winter, snow and all the other pleasant things and activities it brings along, I have become truly worn down by it. I don't know if the greyness and lack of sun are finally taking its toll on me or what, but I most certainly feel some things going on in me. Because if I close my eyes and try to imagine all the beautiful pictures of the warm sun and soft breeze, the fresh air that simply smells of the blossoming nature, light blurble of water streams on the ground and this certain something, that comes along with spring and makes you feel all giddy inside, I could just instantly fast forward and be there. In that moment. 

So, how are you dealing with the winter blues? And are you also anxiously anticipating the warmer times? 

Music: Gypsy and The Cat - Inside Your Mind 


Picture from pinterest, edit by me.

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