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Thursday, June 22, 2017



See nädal on olnud võrdlemisi kummaline. Ühtaegu on kõik, nii töö kui igapäevategemised läinud libedalt, kuid juba järgmisel hetkel tunnen nagu oleksin end totaalselt mullikilesse mähkinud ja ei jaga ei maast ega ilmast matsugi. Täna tunnen veel eriti seda, kuidas motivatsiooni isegi kõige lihtsamateks asjadeks lihtsalt pole ning iga tund juba varahommikust saadik musta auku kokku jookseb. Ma ei oska öelda, miks ma end nii tunnen, aga see ajab mind ühel hetkel meeletult närvi, kuid teisel ei suuda seda piiritut ükskõiksust sõnadessegi panna. Ei viitsi keskenduda, et tööd teha, ei viitsi trenni teha või jooksma minna, sest lihtsam on voodis lebada ja otsast peale "Gossip Girli" vaadata, ei viitsi süüa teha, sest lihtsam on kuskilt miskit nipet-näpet suhu pista. No lihtsalt ei ole minu päev vist, suisa ehk nädal.

Kuid jah, kuna praegu on aasta kõige ilusam aeg ning tahaksin neid pikki päevi viimseni ära kasutada, tuleb end maast üles korjata ja tegudele asuda. Teha neid asju, mida hing ihkab ja mitte lasta motivatsioonipuudusega segunenud laiskusepisikul end maadligi suruda. Lihtsam öelda kui teha, aga vähemalt tuleb proovi teha. Õnneks on toredamad ajad ees: sel nädalavahetusel ootab ees väike matkareis mägedesse ning juba järgmisel viib teekond taaskord Berliini. Oh, kuidas ma seda linna igatsen...

Aga jah, alustame väikestest asjadest. Tavaliselt aitab Pinterest sellistel puhkudel hädast välja. Ja siin ta siis on, üle pika aja jälle üks minimalstlik tujutahvel (haha, moodboard kõlab ikka palju paremini). Ehk tõstab ka kellegi teise meeleolu kõrgemale ning pakub väikest inspiratsiooni. Eks inimene ole inimlik olla, kuid vahepeal tuleb ise mõned sammud vahele astuda ja oma teekonda paremale rajale suunata. Las see päev olla minu jaoks täna.


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This week has been so extremely off. On the one hand, everything I do, work or daily habits, have gone so damn smoothly and on the other I feel like I was wrapped in a few layers of bubble wrap and I don't understand a thing of what is going on. I feel these feelings hitting me especially hard today, when I have zero motivation for even the most simplest things and every hour spent since the very early morning runs into this dark whole of nothingness. I don't know what is the reason lying behind these "amazing" feelings, but I can admit that it pisses me off big time, but then again at I could care less at the same time...I don't care about focusing enough to deliver at work. I don't care enough to drag my butt outside to exercise or go running, because it is easier to lie in bed and rewatch Gossip Girl from season 1. I don't care enough to cook, because it is easier to nibble on some random things I can find from the kitchen. I guess it is just not my week.

But as now is the most beautiful and amazing time of the year, I would like to use these long days to the mazimum. Therefore I need to pick myself up from the ground and get going. I want to do all these things I planned for the summer and don't let this weird mixture of lack of motivation and laziness get the best out of me. It is easier said than done, but at least got to try. Luckily there are some lovely things awaiting: this weekend will be spent hiking in the mountains and on the next one Berlin baby! Oh how I have missed that place! It has been too long...

Alrighty, let's start with the little things. Usually Pinterest tends to help out on such occasions. So here it is, a tiny minimalistic moodboard to raise my mood and lay rays of sunshine and happiness on me. Maybe it will do the same to some of you, who might feel somehow similar. I believe it is human to be human, but sometimes you have to make some extra steps to break the bad moments and set your aim back onto the right track. May that day be today.

All pictures from Pinterest.*

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